new year, new post, new opportunities

I had the worse day of my 8 month old marriage a few days ago on New Years (consequently, I may have made it Kate's worse day as well).  It was a pretty special mood, let me tell you.  Kate was upstairs, I was down in the living room... we hadn't talked for about 5 hours.  I really wanted to switch but I was so hateful, I couldn't bear the thought of a smile, of conversation, of anything of the sort.  I was actually reciting in my mind the most heartless & loveless way to ask if we could swap floors every few hours... when at last, Kate comes down- "WHATS WRONG???"  "Nothing," I reply.  (Of course it's nothing, right?  GOSH!)

That morning, after having taken a shower, I sat at my desk wallowing in my selfishness.  I glanced over, picked up a small book and this is what I read:

Each Day...

It's quite.  It's early.  My coffee is hot.  The sky is still black.  The world is still asleep.  The day is coming.

In a few moments the day will arrive.  It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun.  The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day.  The calm of solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race.  The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met.  

For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands.  It is now that I must make a choice.  Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose.  And so I choose.

I choose LOVE...

No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness.  I choose love.  Today I will love God and what God loves.

I choose JOY...

I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance.  I will refused the temptation to be cynical... the tool of the lazy thinker.  I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God.  I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I choose PEACE...

I will live forgiven.  I will forgive so that I may live.

I choose PATIENCE....

I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.  Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so.  Rather than complain that the wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment to pray.  Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I choose KINDNESS...

I will be kind to the poor, for they are along; kind to the rich, for they are afraid; and kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I choose GOODNESS...

I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one.  I will be overlooked before I will boast.  I will confess before I will accuse.  I choose goodness.

I choose FAITHFULNESS...

Today I will keep my priorities.  My debtors will not regret their trust.  My associates will not question my word.  My wife will not question my love.  And my children will never fear that their father will not come home.

I choose GENTLENESS...

Nothing is won by force.  I choose to be gentle.  If I raise my voice may it be only in praise.  If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer.  If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I choose SELF-CONTROL...

I am a spiritual being... after this body is dead, my spirit will soar.  I refuse to let what will rot rule the eternal.  I choose self-control.  I will be drunk only for joy.  I will be impassioned only be my faith.  I will be influenced only by my faith.  I will be influenced only by God.  I will be taught only by Christ.  I choose self-control.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  To these I commit my day.  If I succeed, I will give thanks.  If I fail, I will seek his grace.  And then, when the day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest

Max Lucado

When God Whispers Your Name

May you be much less successful than I was in ignoring this on New Years.  Kate and I have have written down some of our goals for this year... hopefully, you have made time to do the same.  Here's to the hardships and opportunities of 2009!

Be blessed,

jason